It will be one year on August 27, 2016, since you have been gone and I miss you still. I miss the thump thump thump of your tail. I could just look at you and your tail would go crazy I miss your crazy tail it would wag CONSTANTLY 24/7. Not only would that tail clear tables it would leave red marks on our legs. I miss the way you would greet us from coming home whether it would be while we were gone all day or just 10 minutes. Your butt would wiggle so hard. I miss your smile....and yes she smiled. I miss you and Leia playing and the stampede of you two running through the house. I miss your fur. MiKayla always would tell me how soft your fur is. It wouldn’t matter if you were dirty your fur was always so soft, but on the other hand wow did you shed and some of your hair was as long as mine. I miss people telling me how sweet and beautiful you were. I miss you playing with MiKayla. MiKayla still talks about how much she misses you and how you were the best at playing tug of war. You played so well with kids. I miss your snorting before you would bark. I miss how much you hated when Aaron would sneeze. You would hear him sneeze and run and find me haha. I can’t explain it but you hated his sneezes. I miss making you bark I felt like you were talking to me. Your loyalty was exceptional. If loyalty could be explained you would be part of that definition. I miss your beautiful brown soulful eyes. I miss seeing you just staring at me. I’d like to think you were looking at my lovingly, but more than likely you probably just wanted a treat. Which I would gladly give you. I miss talking to you and yes I would talk to you and I just knew you understood me. I miss your head tilts.....some of the words I could use to get that head tilts is - you wanna go for a walk, you want a hamburger, you wanna go bye bye, you wanna go with me, you want a treat? I miss how much of a picky eater you were. Now you would get excited about a new bag of dog food. Probably the only time you would eat dry dog food, but the next day I better have some wet food in the mix. I miss giving you your meds. Goddamn, you were by far the hardest doggy to give medicine and towards the end, you had a lot of meds. I tried anything and everything. What I would hate the most is when people would give me advice. Why don’t you just put it in peanut butter? Really? You don’t think I tried that. No matter what I put it in you would find it - steak, burger, lunch meat, Mcdonald’s hamburger, wet food, pill pocket and yes peanut butter. You would eat everything MINUS THAT DAMN PILL. What I miss most of all is you following me all over the house…my constant companion and what Aaron would call you..my shadow. Always in my way, but I wouldn’t have had it any other way. I would have to step over you while I was cooking, getting ready, in my closet, in the bathroom waiting for me……..you were ALWAYS one step behind me. You would trip me, stepping on my heels, flip flops and shoes.

I miss even towards the end trying to make you comfortable. I think I knew in my heart the end was coming, but I was in denial. You are irreplaceable my sweet Cleo! I try to remember all the good memories, but I still have many regrets and I hope to one day deal with those regrets. I know you were old and it was time, but I thought we had a few more years together. If I had known that I would have loved you harder, I wish I could have gotten a 2nd opinion with another doctor, gone with my gut because I KNEW SOMETHING WAS WRONG. I SHOULD HAVE TRIED HARDER!!!! Rey keeps me busy, but your memory is always in the back of my mind. I may not cry as much as I do, probably because Rey keeps us on our toes, but I know I will always miss and want you back. In my eyes, you were the perfect friend. You were my favorite hello....and my hardest goodbye!